Don’t unwild me

I know I did not come with an instruction manual. But no amount of instructions will help you handle my quirkiness darling. For I am unpredictable, for I am wild and I cannot be tamed. I am the waves of the sea that you can watch, surf on and enjoy but never conquer. I am the storm that passes your life and changes it forever. I am known to destroy, but thats how I help create new life.

You can do your best to make me understand that we need roots and we need to settle down but the sky calls me with a fervent cry and I can’t help but fly. I wasn’t meant to stay in one place or with one person. My heart cannot be caged, my life cannot be boxed and my soul cannot be tied. Don’t clip my wings for I am known to outgrow every prison. Let me be, let me walk away. I always come back. My soul needs to taste the wonders of life and then it comes back. It won’t be satisfied with a so called normal life. There is nothing normal about me. There never was.

Lets enjoy our time together. Lets make the most of it. Lets dance in ecstacy. Lets watch sunsets together. Lets sit by the beach at midnight listening to the crashing of waves. Lets do some adventures and then I will have to leave. I have to go walk some of my journey alone and make some memories and face some fears and drop some insecurities and spread some love and touch some souls and smell the skies and swim the oceans and climb some mountains and ride some plateaus.

I may go for the sophisticated look and be classy for a bit and meet and greet people but as soon as time permits I want to change to my gypsy attire and go into the forest and talk to the trees and play with some animals. I want to be so much more than what the world out there thinks I am supposed to be. I want to dance with the tribes around fire and perform some wiccan rituals. I want to howl at the moon and run free in the jungles. I want to breathe fire and fly over cities.

I don’t love casually. I sink my teeth in your heart and steal it without your knowledge. But I give you my heart in return. I turn the world upside down when it comes to my relationships. I love like crazy and expect to be loved deeply. You could care for my heart or break it. The choice is yours. As for me, I will keep moving till I find what satisfies my body and fulfils my soul. It’s blood I am after, it’s bones I am after. But a loving heart will trump it all.

Life isn’t white or black or shades of grey as Nikita Gill says. It’s made of colours like azure and coral and emerald and marigold. And I was born to go explore all the colours of life and make it rich and vibrant and colourful. How could you stop me from doing that? You couldn’t. Coz baby, I am unstoppable and the only force that can stop me temporarily or bring me back is love. So do what you do best. Love me and let me go.

I am a wild girl. Don’t unwild me!!